I used to be a good girl…doing bad things.
But. Four years under the rig and… I’m a bad girl trying to move up.
It’s worse in this direction. (!)
I’m secretly happy that Earl and I have to wake up at 4:45 every morning. You should really see for yourself how beautiful it is here. I’m mesmerized daily. Maybe always.
Sorry for being so mushy!
I wish I could post photos- but my tumblr app won’t work for some reason.
(We all know I love news…reading, watching, talking about…)
Seriously. Watching CBS “Sunday Morning” with Charles Osgood is one of my favorite times of the week. Earl is at work and I have a bed full of cuddle pups.
I am so confused inside my guts. I need to be stronger. I can’t talk about my court stuff here, but it’s the piano swinging above my head :(
I heard someone say, “I love life- I just hate mine,” and it’s been on my mind a lot. I’m trying to make even more positive changes…still difficult. It’s weird how, when you’re young, things seem so much easier. I feel old because I’m turning 24 next week. At least I have Earl. I’d die if I didn’t have him to love my smelly face when it’s un-made-up.
I’m just kidding- things are awesome. Mostly, hilarious…really….especially my puppies. I’m a super creep. :)
I should post more photos.
I haven’t been here since forever, but….
8 months, jerkheads! :D
Other than the sobriety and happy married and puppied life….
I’m having some serious health problems :( I deserve it though, for how I treated my body. What I know: I have an ulcer. What I don’t know: whether or not I’ve developed cervical cancer this time :/; what’s wrong with my stomach; whether or not I have hep C…etc. The other day I took my blood pressure and I was at 146/88. Look up what it’s supposed to be….
My anxiety is killing me! And now my body is in cahoots with it! Wah!
Sorry for being a downer. I have court again tomorrow. I decided I need to stop giving myself so much free time to think about doing bad things.
Ok. That’s it.
Love,
Pigpot
And this is our new puppy, Biscuit. She can’t come over yet cuz she’s too young. My friends’ dogs had her, along with three other tiny puppies I love. :)
It’s more blue since this was taken, even. A third color was added. I am happy and I have 7 weeks tomorrow! :)
This is what I was talking about. I’ve always loved this book, and this cover art. It really helped to shape my values at a pivotal point in my life many years ago. :)
And since this is an update… Life is feeling so much better than it has in a long while.
I feel like a floating head. Portland is a perfect fit, even if I am a perfect failure. For the record, I’m doing the right thing, though. I’m getting better. The most recent scars on my arms are not from a blade, but a needle. I’m ashamed. I’m looking for a god that I keep forgetting to pray to. Sometimes when I’m driving at night in the cool summer air of the pacific northwest, I swear I see lights over the Cascades- just like the crazy people on Coast to Coast. :)
Crossing my fingers and saying a prayer. I want this marketing specialist position so bad. $20/hour? Come onnnnn.
